I am super happy today.
Not because something grand happened, but because I finally accomplished a long-awaited task I’ve been dreading for a while. Strangely enough, my ex-Talent Developer stepped in to help. Or manage me. I like to think of it in the light of “help.”
I believe everyone deserves the benefit of the doubt. If not the best, then at least a shot at it. And I think that starts when we choose to see the best of others.
Once we label someone in a good light, it’s almost as if they start becoming it. Especially those who carry a growth mindset. Don’t we all want to work with people who see the best in us—and us in them?
I like to think the world is perfect. That every human is good. Sometimes they’re just in a rough patch. Or they didn’t know any better.
It’s easy for me to say that. I haven’t been broken so badly that I see the world through a shattered lens. But what about the people who’ve lost their grip on sanity? Or their loved ones? What happens to them?
You’ll see, they say…
When your loved one passes.
That thought scares me more than any heartbreak I’ve known.
I recently saw a video of my mom, and while I’m out here living my life,
I realised: she’s changing.
Her skin is aging.
And I can’t help but feel that creeping sadness. 😢
Because she’s growing older.
Even when I was young, I have always prayed ~ just take us to the other world together.
I hate this. The part of loving so much and knowing you’ll one day have to let go.
Being away from my family, somehow, is like preparing myself for the inevitable.
I take it for granted now that I could just call, and they’d pick up.
One day, I won’t be able to. 😢
But coming home without any significant improvement in my life?
That’s its own kind of pain.
I feel like I should’ve made their lives easier by now.
I live with reasons for why I haven’t, and those reasons… they could’ve been shared more.
But this time,
I chose myself.
To live my best life ~
Until sorrow comes.
Until fear knocks.
Until love demands more of me than ambition ever could.
…And I hope that when that moment comes, I’m ready.
