Woes & Wins of English

I decided to treat myself to the renowned fries at a spot called Fabel Friet, just within the charming streets of Damstraatjes, Amsterdam. Judging by the long queue, I knew I was in for a treat ~ and boy, they were delicious.

But what truly made my day was the unexpected conversation with the Dutch cashier.

Thinking about this, I find it fascinating to realise that my thoughts now naturally flow in English.

During Filipino meetings, where we speak our native language, I sometimes find myself mentally disengaging ~ not because I have any disdain for the language, but because I am deeply committed to refining my ability to think and communicate entirely in English.

Admittedly, I occasionally do the same in English conversations when the accent is heavily distinct ~ whether Filipino or any other non-standard English accent. It's my way of distancing myself from the accent which I've been consciously working to neutralise.

While I recognise that accents are not inherently negative and often add character and identity, I feel that this step is necessary for my personal and professional growth.

Still, there are exceptions ~ conversations with family and close friends. Those moments allow me to relax and revert to the comfort of my native tongue. However, these exchanges have become infrequent, which I regret but also accept as part of the changing dynamics in my life.